ode to a chimera

don’t i just
look happy
to you?!…

isn’t always there
a large smile
on my face?

and don’t i always
dry your tears
with grace?…

don’t i always
find the jokes
that make you laugh?

and don’t i always
find the songs
that make you tough?…

don’t i always
find the words
that make
you
smile?

and don’t i
always
fuckin’
find
the shit
that makes
you
happy
for a while?

*

yet there’s a quiet scream
scratching
the surface of my teeth

and ’cause
I always smile
and look
so happy

you just can’t hear
the loud,
dim silence
in between

my jokes…
my songs…
my words…

my… smiles

*

still i forget about my worries,
and i always
smile

because
i know
it makes
you
happy
for a while

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