don’t i just
look happy
to you?!…
isn’t always there
a large smile
on my face?
and don’t i always
dry your tears
with grace?…
don’t i always
find the jokes
that make you laugh?
and don’t i always
find the songs
that make you tough?…
don’t i always
find the words
that make
you
smile?
and don’t i
always
fuckin’
find
the shit
that makes
you
happy
for a while?
*
yet there’s a quiet scream
scratching
the surface of my teeth
and ’cause
I always smile
and look
so happy
you just can’t hear
the loud,
dim silence
in between
my jokes…
my songs…
my words…
my… smiles
*
still i forget about my worries,
and i always
smile
because
i know
it makes
you
happy
for a while